1) My answers weren’t correct. I shall feel guilty when the answers I had given to them, were wrong. Some of them blamed me, some of them didn’t. Even though some didn’t blame me, I still felt guilty to them. Let’s get back to “Some of them blame me”… why they needed to blame me??? It’s not my fault… They asked for answers and I gave them… I gave what they wanted from me… They must be grateful or at least remain silent for the unfortunate news… these wouldn’t happen if they didn’t ask for my answer right??? They blamed me because they didn’t think it deeper. They just thought that “it was his answer, so he is responsible for it.” That’s all… easy to be concluded. I’ve never intended to give wrong answers to my fellows.
2) They didn’t give me any time. They just demanded it rapidly whereas me checking the condition around (The teacher’s eyes). I had done the best I could to not letting both of us to get caught by the teacher. But they just didn’t know it…
3) They didn’t let me finish my mine first. They just kept demanding the answers for their own questions… Ego? Yes… Too ego in fact… They wanted their questions to be filled first instead of mine and they asked me to fill them … so ego… this happened because I recently helped them in exam… so they wouldn’t be ashamed again to do that… then I decided to stop…
4) Based on the third reason… They recently demanded answers from me… so in every exam, when they knew that they would be close to me, they threw their books away, relaxed… once I asked one of them, “Don’t you want to learn?”, you know what he replied? He replied this, “For what? I can ask you at the exam, we’re close… so close…”…. I’m deadly surprised… it’s like I had turned them into lazy humans… they just relied on me… asking me with their sweet-deadly-poisonous words… If I didn’t help them, they’ll be so mad at me, blaming me for their bad scores…. o.O…. it’s my own will whether I want to help them or not right??? In a fairer way, I learnt hardly and they’re just relaxed and waited for my answers, it’s fair that they had bad scores and I had nice scores right? They blamed me as if it’s my fault?!?! So insane!!! What did they expect? Having good scores without hard work? Ridiculous… I want to make them to be independent, I want to make them see what they have inside them which was hidden all this time. I know they can did it by themselves if they wanted to….
5) Then the last, a softer reason… If I helped them, I turned them into lazy humans as I said before… it’s better if they had tried their best… even if they failed, at least they would be proud of themselves like what I did… not cheating, trying the best I could, and be proud of myself… this is my motto, and willson's motto as well… scores aren’t everything… they’re just a stupid thing… the true things come from what inside you… your talents… love… passion… and any others… school nowadays didn’t noble those things again… but the world will noble that… even god…
Understand Stanley?
It's not because I don't want to, it's because I can't.
It's not because I don't want to, it's because I can't.
Some persons will also have the same reasons with me for not helping peoples in exam...
So you mustn't judge a friend by whether he helped you in exam or not...
Okay?
God Bless You….
Have a nice day.....
So you mustn't judge a friend by whether he helped you in exam or not...
Okay?
God Bless You….
Have a nice day.....
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